Kentish ramble

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ok i havnt updated for a while because ive been too damn busy with work and stuff and preparing to come back to cornwall for the easter holidays! which is where i am now...sitting in my parents new house which i absolutly hate for one reason or another....(if anyone wants to ask they are welcome to but be prepared).
the only real news is that im now dating some guy called luke. the one thing about uni dating is that everyone lives so far away! for example luke lives just down the road from uni so i a good 7 hours away!
am going to dystopia tonight for jacks birthday which should be a laugh!

Wednesday was Ciarons birthday so we decided to throw him a surprise party (because he hates his birthday!) its almost didnt happen (as we couldnt find Ciaron to get him back to the flat) eventually we got him back (by telling him i had a row with carl about Llew) and got him to accept that he was having a party (he tried to run away. so we got to the venue (I was already quite drunky) and we sat down for a bit and i chatted to loads of people who i rarely get to talk to...dancing was great fun too. It was so the best night i have had at the venue and i managed to pull a couple of people! when we got back we dragged shitloads of stuff into Ciarons kitchen and had an after party which i remember very little of apart from there being a toilet!!!!!!

Well have not slept all night on account of helping drunk people stop spazzing...all that ended at 5:30 but it seemed pointless to go to bed as i have to get up soon to hand my essay in anyways!
im gonna be grouchy tonight

well thank you so far to the 2 people that have done my things! ? i would like you to do the other one if you can.....and possibly identify yourself because i cant think who it might be. and free_and_easy i love yours as always!

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ARGH this bloody work is going to be the death of me...ive been working on it since monday and still no dice! and its due in tuesday....thank god for kye loving me! however last night kicked some ass which is always a good thing!

well tonight will be the first time since tuesday i have left my corridor. ive not been very well since tuesday last week and its not been very nice. i think it had something to do with my anemia and so i am on iron suppliments just to see. if these dont work itll be a trip to the doctors which i really dont want to do. ive also been really down but i suspect that being ill has something to do with that! so ive decided that despite the fact i am still feeling a bit crappy that i am going to the venue tonight...chances are i will regret it tomorrow but as long as i dont drink as much as i did on tuesday i should be ok!
wish me luck

well last night was interesting! i was supposed to have a date with the guy i met last week at girls and boys but i didnt really feel like it. this was mainly because i was kinda worried of going on my own and meeting his mates, non of whom i know! it was also kinda daunting because he is not a uni student and so i would have had to have gone off campus. Instead i went round to anthony's thinking we were going to see a play. we ended up going to the venue instead, all dressed in each others clothing (even more amusing than it sounds) dont really remember much of it or afterwards as i was very drunk but i do remember kissing anthony...which is rather surprising considering he is gay! ohh dear. cant be fussed to go out tonight but i may well end up doing so. also want to meet up with that guy at some point but am not sure how to approach it given that i turned him down once!

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well me and carl split up almost a week ago now...and although i miss him a great deal i realise it was the right decision. this is the first night since that i have spent in my flat and i can still feel him here. i went to a wikid party last night though...dont really remember much of it but hell i had fun! and fun is what i need at the moment. my mates are being very supportive which is cool. particularly L, C-ron and Dan. dan has a little bit of a crush on me bless him but he was really sweet this evening and cooked me dinner. to be honest i think its a bit to do with the fact i let him have a bit of a cry on my sholder last evening but hell what are mates for....

me and carl are still together but i get the feeling this is gonna take a hell of a lot of work....which to be frank im not so sure will happen (not for lack of trying)....i havnt seen him since we decided to get back together. i spent last night at the pub with C-ron, kye, llew, smee, chris and dan.....we met some fucking randomers who were 4th year or something.....i have to say i dont really remember as i was drunk when i left the pub! after this we went back to c-rons and i had a bottle of vodka....oops. but it was cool apart from the weird ass panic attack....they just keep on coming
i have to admit though that i did just spend most of the evening hanging out with llew which was cool as fuck because we are good mates but have barely seen each other since we got back.
im glad to be back together with carl. i have missed him terribly over our break (which is really my fault becuase i initiated it)and have found it hard.... but im sure it will be fine...i have a supportive network of mates after all....or a stoned/drunk set of mates but either way....its all good.

well tonight is the night when it all is supposed to be resolved one way or another! wish me luck!

hummmm still no me and carl news...although we r planning to meet up. these past few days have been really emotional and last night i had a flash back and started having a panic attack! scary stuff. but ive been trying to keep myself distracted....lets hope it works

well i am not a happy bunny at the moment. its nice to be abck in uni and all but it looks like me and carl are about to split up. we are on a break at the moment. it all has to day with the issues i have, and the fact that he doesnt support me porperly. i still care for him but i need more emotional stability! its not all his fault though! i miss him really bad but i cant approach him to talk to him, and he is not responding to my msgs...i know we r on a break but i need to talk to him is we are going to be able to get this sorted and go back to being together!
its sad....i know i have to learn to cope with it because i get the feeling he doesnt want to be with me anymore....and if he doesnt i cant blame him

today is my last day in penzance for a few months. i do not pretend to regret very much that i will leave behind, and those who that refers to know who or what they are. on the other hand i cannot wait to see my uni buddies again, particularly C-ron and Carl. staying at C-rons for a couple of days will be quite relaxing hopefully, despite the unfortunatly.
this holiday has ment gaining contact with an old friend again, and calling a hiatus with another friend. im sorry but i cannot regret anything.
i need to be away from this town, i hate it

hmmmm sitting at jacks
christmas was a bit shit on accountof having to stay with GRANDMA. however did get some cool stuff
am at jacks recovering from dystopia
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just said goodbye to virtually everyone...inc. C-ron and Kye. they are probably the people who i am going to miss most. i met carl's father today...very very posh but nice. I also met C-rons parents...the mother kept giving me evils but his dad seemed ok, if a little shaken up; as he got hit on the way! i am going to stay with C-ron after new year which should be good fun! its just me and Ant tonight...yay girls night in! I'm leaving here at about midday tommorow and travelling back to PZ on Monday

just said a sad goodbye to carl for 3 weeks... it will be difficult to cope without him as he has been a real comfort for me. i know that i am going home tommorow to people that love me but its just that these next 24 hours are going to be hard.

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